Realise something wrong with her, she was walking so slowly and in a very weird way..
Gave her some food to eat but she didn't want..
Then went to tell sis about it..
When I went back, I heard a 'thud' sound..
She had fallen down..
Then she laid there for quite a while before getting up and moving again..
So, she practically fell and walked, fell anfd walked..
Exactly the same symptom as 3-tone, which had also passed away on 26 of June..
Seeing her in this state really broke my heart..
Just as what I had heard before "人都是有感情的动物"，所以，我流泪了..
Finally, she fell and couldn't get up anymore..
I think she was too weak to get up..
While my sis was preparing some bread for the both of us, she kept giving out some noise, it was as if she was trying to tell me something..
Hearing her make those noises really really broke my heart, therefore I told her, "Go, go and find 3-tone... ..."
Just as we were eating bread, she passed away... ...
But we weren't so certain that she was really gone until both of us went to touch her and realised that she had hardened..
Her eyes were not closed, and her mouth was opened, exactly the same as 3-tone!!
Then after awhile, there was this while fluid flowing out of her eyes, was she crying??
Hmm, anyway, now that both of them had passed away, I'm left with not pets at all, no matter how late I'm in the morning, I will not have to feed them, think I will just have to get used to it..
I will definitely miss them after spending such long years with them!
Flower,
Thanks for accompany me all these while, was glad that you were here, to lend me a listening ear when I met with problems.. I hope that you have lived a wonderful life here, and I was real glad to be able to accompany you during yout last moments.. Now that you have go to another world, I hope that you are happy over there. Just to tell you that no matter where you are, I will miss you and love you forever!
Today was the last day of school for majority of the pupils but not for the sec 3s..
Still have to go back for another 3 weeks plus weird guitar pract schedule..
Planning to go watch High School Musical early next week with Roseanna and Sam Lai..
Haven't confirm yet, cause that Roseanna is a 大忙人, everday also busy de..
Grrrr...
Ms Wan discussed with us the 3E BBQ today and me, Roseanna, Yann Ting, Sam Lai and Leonard volunteer to go buy cause she said need a guy to go help carry drinks..
Haha..
Forgot what is the date le, shld be 10th Dec bah, if I'm not mistaken..
Must double-check with Sam Lai..
Tmr meet-the-parent sia!!
Sian plus nervous!!
Hope I don't retain siala..
I did put in my best effort lor, but mum insist that I did not..
随她啦， 习惯就好..
I know myself can le..
Slack the whole day at home today again..
Not totally la, I helped change the bedding of my guinea pig...
Hehe..
Can't stand it being so dirty and smelly..
After went crazy in my own world again...
Played Avril Lavigne's songs very de loud..
Especially "Innocence"..
Like that song so much, couldn't help it!!
Then use guitar and played along..
Haha..
Then played the video of her performing live one..
Imagined myself was the guitarist inside and played plus 合音..
Playing still can, but 合音very 失败..
Haha, but who cares, just for my own entertainment mah, since no one's at home..
Is very de fun de lor!!!
Then played 对的人and tried to 标高音..
Not bad la, I think..
Hahaha..
Glad to have found my entertainment!
Oh ya, I'd mastered abit of 宇宙小姐 the "robot" dance..
The front intro and the chorus..
Some parts is repeated de, I realised..
Yay....
Easier like that..
Tmr no school again, so can learn somemore as mum said she'll be going out..
Alone at home again..
Anyway, there's this one question that I had been thinking these few days..
Yesterday dad finally came back to spend the night here..
I know I should feel happy right?
But I wasn't!!
Why?!
How?!
I feel that once he come back and occupy the study room, it will be very de MESSY and smelly again cause full of cigarette smell!
GRRRR!!!
我好不容易才打扫干净， 他干吗又来弄脏？！
Once I think of this, I can't help but feel damn pissed off!!
I have to carry the two guitars plus the stand in and out everyday you know, cause I play them in the study room everyday..
And if he wake up late everyday, then I cannot come in and use comp..
Need to carry my things in and out somemore, very troublesome de leh!!
He came back to sleep today again..
Haiz..
I knoow I shouldn't have this type of thinking, I didn't want it too!
But I can't help it..
He led me into this type of thinking..
Cannot sleep late again also, cause at around 11, he'll come in and use his laptop at my place there and pushes everything aside messily to create space..
The worst is, HE DON'T PUT THEM BACK IN PLACE!!
I HATE IT!!
I don't like people to mess my things up, including my life!
After such long hours of thinking, I think I'm having this type of thinking is partly because of what he had done on tue...
Not convenient to disclose it here..
Sometimes, I really don't know what adults are thinking and what they want sia..
Really wish that I can sdig out their brains and feel what they're thinking..
Though I think I didn't do very well, but I hoped I can get promoted!!
Found something to do recently, and that's my hobby: DRAWING!!
Drew before Inuyasha the cute version for my sis, S.H.E(except that I haven draw the faces yet) and also draw before Hebe, which I don't think look alike..
Now, I'm drawing Avril Lavigne..
The most difficult part is the whole face I think..
The eyes, nose, and mouth(lips all that)..
I suck at drawing them..
They spoilt the whole drawing everytime.. Grrr..
But hope I succeed this time, then next time can draw lots of S.H.E picts le, go frame them up!!
Haha, next time got chance show them!!
Lol, daydreaming again..
Hehe..
Anyway, this is the pict that I've chosen to draw..
And this is what I'd drawn.. Don't look quite alike sia, but nvm, will touch up more as I carry on..
If this one fails, I will re-draw another one...
Practice makes perfect!
Anyway, went home after school to slack today..
Actually me and Sam Lai were deciding to accompany Roseanna de, cause she thought today got cca then never bring key so cannot go home..
Haiyo, girl ar, go out must always bring key de..
But guess she didn't want to trouble us so found her friends to accompany her instead..
Hehe..
Actually me and Sam were intending to go watch The House Bunny with her but thought she got cca, so didn't went..
Reached home then realised..
Haha, nvm..
So tmr, maybe going out to cycle with Beatrice and Jeanette they all..
Not sure yet, see weather how first..
Oh my, guess there will be alot of fond memories flashing back again..
Went down with sis to buy breakfast just now, and guess who I saw... ...
Ms Chin and her husband..
Haha..
Saw her 2 times, one at the supermarket, one at Watson..
She look so different when she didn't make up, lol..
Hehe..
But, still as pretty as ever..!
She recognises me and we smiled at each other..
Lol..
While I was playing PSP before dinner today, overheard mum and sis conversation..
This is seriously a type of conversation that I rather hope I not hear..
Should I say it here?
Haiya, just say la, if not keep inside the heart very de 辛苦..
She said dad sent her msg(s), asking her to help him pay the utility bills..
Then said that he will return her the money used for buying sis's laptop..
Mum also said something about him being married which I couldn't quite catch anything..
And I was too shocked to believe what I'm hearing..
She also said that he has the idea of us moving out soon when she told him 1 year later, after I have graduated..
This sentence really hurts the most..
Is like 'driving' us out can?!
And, did he ever spare a thought for me?!
I seriously don't think so..
I guess adults are all like that, they only care about themselves? Their own happiness?
Last time, I used to think that adults are very mature, have mature thinkings, but it seems to me now that some don't..
I also used to think that parents are so important and 伟大 to protect their children no matter what happens..
But I'm starting to 犹豫了 now..
As for my dad, I really wonder why he can't afford the bills, they aren't very very high... ..
From his income, he can afford them de, I guess is just because he don't want bah..
He don't give a damn about it..
I have my own reasons for saying all these, or should I say I heard the reasons..
I guess there will be one day when the electricity will be cut off and everyone has to live using candles..
My phone bills also, quite long didn't pay le..
Next time no one can contact me sia, if it's cut off..
Got this 预感 that all these will happen..
How I wish I can quickly grow up and go and earn some money to pay my own bills... ...
Now, even if I wanna change phone, I don't even dare, cause my sis's one is changed using her own money sia..
I where got so much $$?
Furthermore, just now was asking Syalabi sth about PSP/internet stuffs and he told me to ask my dad..
Ask?
I dun even see him, how to ask?
Sometimes, I really feel like hating them, but I just can't bring myself to do that..
Habe_Choo Jiayi
17
3 February 1993
Aquarius
Single
jiayi22@hotmail.com
Nanyang Polytechnic after Dunman Secondary after East Spring Primary
1E'06 2D'07 3E'08 4E'09
Guitar Ensemble[chords]
~Likes~
People who are talented, humble and friendly!
~Hates!~
People who're bias, who copies, who acts, backstabbers, arrogant
IDOLS!!
Actors/Actress:Jeanette Aw(S'pore),Rui En(S'pore),Elvin Ng(S'pore),Linda Chung(Hong Kong),Kate Tsui(Hong Kong),Fala Chen(Hong Kong)
Singers:S.H.E,Elva Hsiao,Tank,Wang Lee Hom,Wang Fei,Tanya Chua,BoA,Avril Lavigne
MY BELOVES~
-All my S.H.E stuffs(Albums, Dramas, DVDs, Posters, Magazines, Poker Cards & Jigsaw puzzle etc..)
-My iPhone4
-My Guitar
-My PSP
-My Laptop
-My ZEN
MY WISH
Learning all their dance steps
Hoping to be able to play their songs using a piano
BE ABLE TO SEE S.H.E AGAIN!
Found this picture, but dunno whether is it true anot.. Hope it is!!
Jeanette taking picture of Beatrice while B taking picture if me, so I took a pict of her
Anyway, went home after school to slack today..
