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Saturday, March 26, 2011

Saturday, 26th March 2011

世界上最卑鄙的东西就是人类，包跨我在内。
最近发生了很多事情，让我不得有这个想法。

最终Pepper还是没动手术，因为医生发现它的骨已经回原来的位置，而这种现象大多数都是遗传。

换句话来说，它并不是跌伤，而是因为父母不健康所以把这种病遗传了给它。
我，宁愿它是跌伤而不是遗传。
这件事又为什么会让我觉得人类是卑鄙的呢？
就因为人类想赚钱，所以他们也没有管那两只狗是不是有不良的髖關節(Hip Dysplasia)，就让它们这样生孩子。
也许他们并不知道那两只狗是有不良的髖關節，但是那就能当借口，把责任推到一干二净吗？
在让它们生育之前，人类是不是应该带它们去做一个身体检查，确保它们是健康的，然后才让它们生育？
就因为他们自私，只想到自己，觉得每次带它们去做身体检查才能让它们生育很破费，觉得这样子做自己会做亏本的生意，所以就自以为它们是健康的。
难道他们从没想过，就因为他们的“自以为”会照成多少人的痛苦？
就因为他们的“自以为”，改变了许多小狗的命运！
就因为他们的“自以为”，让许多小狗受伤！
就因为他们的“自以为”，让许多小狗受尽折磨！
就因为他们的“自以为”，导致许多小狗无家可归！
你问问你自己，有谁会要一只不健康的小狗？
虽然我不介意，但我却没有这个能力~
可能，这世界上还有少数的人会愿意照顾它们，把它们医好，但我想都只有有钱人会这么做吧~
大多数的人还是会选择遗弃它们的。
但是又有谁会去在乎这些呢？
那些“自以为”的人吗？
放屁！
又不是他们受罪，他们哪会在乎！
他们只会把责任推的一干二净，然后说下次一定会先弄清楚，但他们的话，可以信吗？
最终痛苦，受罪的还不是那些什么都不懂的小狗们？
它们接下来的日子该怎么办，谁要负责？
有人跟我说了一句：“可能SPCA会有好心人免费把它们医好，也说不定呀~”
哈，别开玩笑了！
世界上没有这么好的东西的，当我是白痴吗？！
话说回来，我觉得就连我自己也是个卑鄙的人。
一直说我们不可以那么不负责任，把它遗弃，但是当话题讨论到如何找钱帮它医？
我却一直拿“自己还是个学生”来当借口。
我从没有努力去争取过那些能留住它的办法，而到最后，是不由得让母亲把它带走。
这也算是一种卑鄙的行为吧~
虽然老妈告诉我宠物店里的人有跟她说：一个礼拜带它去海边游泳三次也许会有帮助，但是我要怎么带它去海边呀？
自己是多么想帮上忙，但是却无能为力。
如果说我现在不是学生，是个在工作的人，那该有多好~
第一次觉得自己是那么的没用，就连自己最想保护的东西却保护不了。
虽然宠物店里的人说他们可能会换一只新的给我们，但是，它是有生命的，跟了它三给月，有了感情，能说换就换吗？
我心里的不舍和内疚感，他们会理解吗？
我不敢想像若我放弃它，它将来的日子会是怎样的。
若真的要换，我也不敢保证我有勇气在养还多一只。
我不希望我自己的无能，伤害到多一只小狗。
没有用的主人永远不会是一个好住人的。
觉悟吧，朱佳仪，你不适合养狗！
最后，我还是要说：“我希望所有人，不管你是养狗的或是Breeder, 都能有多一点的责任，若要让你的狗生育，请务必先带那两只狗去做身体检查，确保它们是健康的，才让它们生小孩。
我们不应该一错再错，应该一起努力停止那些不健康的狗在生小孩，让这世界有多点健康的狗，少点不健康的狗吧~

The most despicable thing on earth is human, including myself.
A lot of things had happened lately, which led me to having this thinking.
In the end, Pepper didn't undergo surgery, this is because the doctor realized that her bone went back to its original position, and this usually happens to those who got this disease through heredity.
In other words, she didn't hurt herself, but got this disease from her unhealthy parents.
I would rather she hurt herself and not inherit from her parents.
So, how does this incident leads to me thinking that human are despicable?
Just because humans want to make money, they don't really care whether the adult dogs have hip dysplasia and let them breed.
Maybe they don't know that the adult dogs have hip dysplasia, but it doesn't means that they can use this as an excuse and get away from it!
Shouldn't they bring the adult dogs to a health checkup and ensure that they are healthy before breeding them?
Of course, they will find it a hassle and know that they will be at a losing end if they do so, thus, they ASSUME that those dogs are healthy.
Don't they ever realize that just because of their selfishness and WRONG assumptions, they had hurt many others?
Just because of their ASSUMPTION, the life of many puppies are changed.
Just because of their ASSUMPTION, many puppies are hurt.
Just because of their ASSUMPTION, many puppies are being tortured, emotionally.
Just because of their ASSUMPTION, it had led to many puppies being homeless.
Try asking yourself, who would want an unhealthy puppy?
Though I don't mind treating it, but I don't have the ability~
Maybe, there are a few in this world willing to take care of them, and I think only those who are extreme dog lover and are rich to be able to do so.
Most of them will still choose to abandon them.
But, the question is, who will care about this?
Those selfish and their "so-call assumption" people?
BULL SHIT!!
It's not them who are undergoing all those hardship, so would they even give a damn about it?
They will just push the blame away and then promise that they will take note of it first the next time, but can their words still be trusted?
In the end, those suffering from all these assumptions will be those innocence dogs which don't know what is going on~
What will happen to their lives after on? Who will take charge?
Somebody once told me this: "Maybe people from SPCA may treat them for free? That's very difficult to say."
But do you think it is possible?
I don't believe there is such good thins in this world.
Come to think of it, I'm consider a despicable person too.
Keeps saying that we shouldn't be irresponsible and abandon her, but when it cones to discussing how to come up with the huge sum of medical fees, I'm speechless.
"I am still a student" is just an excuse that I'm giving myself, but I never did made more efforts to fight for ways that is possible to make her stay.
And in the end, I have no choice but to let my mom bring her away.
This is considered a despicable act to me.
Though mom told me that the pet shop owner had suggest that bringing her to the beach 3 times a week may do some help, but how am I going to bring her to the beach?
Though I feel like helping, but there isn't anything that I'm able to help.
If I'm not a student but a working adult now, things may be different.
This is the first time that I'm feeling so useless, useless to the extent that I can't even protect the things that I love.
Though the pet shop owner say there is a possibility that they will change a healthier puppy for us, but Pepper is a living creature, she has feelings too!
And being with her for 3 months, we have already develop feelings for her already, it isn't that easy to part with her!
Furthermore, what will happen to her after the change?
I don't dare imagine~
Who will ever understand the guilt that is in me?
If we're really exchanging, I don't think that I have the courage to own another dog anymore.
I don't wish to bring anymore harm to a harmless dog cause of my inability.
An owner without any ability will never be a good owner.
It's time to wake up, Choo Jia Yi, you're not fit to own a dog after all.
Lastly, all I wish to say is: "I hope that everyone out there, whether you are a dog owner or a breeder, to be more responsible towards your own actions. If you want to breed your dog, please kindly bring those dogs that you wish to breed to a health checkup first to ensure that they are healthy. We shouldn't continue with our mistakes but should play a part to stop those unhealthy dogs from further giving birth so as to lessen the number of unhealthy dogs and to increase the number of healthy dogs.

Pepper，若有一天我们真的不得已要分散，请你记得不是我不要你了，而是因为我没有能力好好照顾你。不关未来的日子会是怎么样，不要放弃自己的生命，要永远记得在我心里的深处，我是多么的爱你。能够拥有你，让你学会 sit, stay, down, paw paw, Hi-5, 转圈圈还有如何怎样上厕所是我这辈子的骄傲！我爱你！

Pepper, if we can't live together in the future anymore, it doesn't mean that I don't want you but I have no ability to take good care of you. But no matter what it is, don't ever give up on yourself, and always remember that deep down in my heart, I really love you a lot. Having able to once own you and taught you how to sit, stay, down, paw paw, hi-5, turn in circles and also how to use the toilet is the proudest thing that I have achieve in my life. I love you~

S.H.E Rawks =) 5:27 PM

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Monday, March 21, 2011

Monday, 21st March 2011

我不是一个好主人。
刚刚带了我的爱狗，Pepper，去看医生，因为它的脚似乎有问题。
医生跟我们说要做X-ray才能更确定问题出在哪里。
不知为什么，做X-ray的时候，我的心情一直忐忑不安，心跳超快的。
过后，医生便请我和妈妈一起看结果。
结果是：医生说它的骨头已经移出原来的位置而建议我们带它去动手术。
因为Pepper的脚这样子已有两个星期了，所以无法帮它把骨头移到原来的位置。
听到这里，我真个人简直是吓了一大跳。
医生接着又说：她们将会把它那粒像“球”一样的骨头切除，然后在把骨头移回原来的为止。这样子它就能恢复到正常走路的姿势了。
而我们问她为什么它一直都没有哭或发出声音呢？
她说，这种东西应该是很痛的而它之没有哭也许是因为它很会忍痛吧。
听到这，又看到Pepper用那种无辜的眼神看着我，我简直要崩溃了。
虽然医生说手术的成功率高达90%而它又年轻，将来不会有什么问题的，但是我还是很担心，很心疼。
阿中，我终于能体会你的感受了~
我知道它很痛，但是我却无能为力，只能准时给它吃止痛药。
它还这么小，却要承受动手术这种东西，而就因为它是只狗，所以更加令人感觉不舍~
虽然你们会说有麻醉药，但是我知道它心里面还是会有压力的~~
在带它回家的路上，妈妈一直不停的唠叨。
难道我的心里就很好受吗？
我想了很多：如果早点带它去看医生，也许就不用动手术了；如果我再细心一点的照顾它，就不会受伤了；如果我花多一点时间陪它，它也许就不会受伤了。
也许它受伤和我无关，但是身为它的主人的我，还是感到无比的内疚。
人终是这样，总在事情发生后才来说如果这个如果那个，但是世界上哪来这么过如果呀？！
我讨厌这样的自己！
我是人，它是狗，我可以阻止这件事情的发生但它不能，为何起我却没有呢？
这也教训了我：以后一定要珍惜眼前所有美好的一切，并进所有能力保留它，不要事发了才责怪自己，太迟了！
刚才妈还告诉我：不然我们把它和Uncle的Ruby交换啦。
我简直是无话可说耶！
虽然只是一种想法，但是这种想法是不该有的想法！
我心里只想着： “你又没有想过也许它不叫的原因是因为它害怕我们得知它的脚有问题，然后遗弃它，所以它才忍着痛，不敢叫的？”
虽然，这种想法很离谱，但我觉得并不是不可能呀~
我想，现在我唯一能做的就只有一直陪着它身边，让它知道我永远都会在它身旁，然后不停的告诉它 “不要怕，不要怕，一下子就过去了~”
也希望它不会责怪我所带给它的疼痛。
Pepper，dui mm ju.

I'm definitely not a good owner.
Just brought Pepper to the vet due to her hind leg problem.
The vet said that it's best to do an X-ray to find out where the problem lies.
When doing her X-ray, I was super nervous~
After that, she invited us to see the results.
And the result is: She said that Pepper's femoral head, which looks like a ball, went out of the socket & I think is something similar as dislocate & she suggest that we let her undergo a surgery.
This is because the problem has been there for 2 weeks, thus she's unable to bring it back to the original spot without surgery.
I was in a state of shock when I heard this.
She continued saying that they'll remove the femoral head (ball) by cutting it away and then move her bone back to the original position so that she'll be able to walk properly once again.
And mom asked her, "Why doesn't she cry or whine or something?"
She said that this type of problem should be very painful and the reason of her not crying may be due to the fact that she can tolerate pain a lot.
I almost break down after hearing this!
Though the doctor said that the success rate of this surgery is as high as 90% and that she's still young, there shouldn't be any problem in the future, but I still feels worried and heartache.
A-Diong, I finally can understand your feeling already~
I know she's in pain, but yet there isn't anything that I can do to share her pain, the only thing I can do is to feed her painkiller.
She's only 5 months going 6, yet she has to undergo surgery and because she is a dog, it makes me feels more heartache~~
You may say that there's anesthetic, why fear? But I know there's still some pressure inside her that she has to face it herself.
Mom kept nagging on the way back, as if I'm feeling great hearing the result.
I'd thought a lot on the way back: if I were to bring her to the vet earlier, maybe she wouldn't need to undergo surgery; if I were to show more care and concern, maybe she wouldn't be injured; if I were to spend more time with her, she wouldn't be injured also.
Maybe her injury has got nothing to do with me, but as her owner, I'm feeling very much, guilty.
I am a human, she is a dog, I can prevent some things from happening, but she can't, and why didn't I do so?
This had taught me something: always treasure everything you had and try to maintain/keep them, don't regret only after something bad has happened as it will be all too late.
Just now, mom told me this: why don't we exchange Pepper with Uncle's Ruby?
And after she told uncle about our trip to the vet, he told her: If not you get another new one then send Pepper to the SPCA, they'll know how to take care of her.
NO WAY AM I GOING TO DO THAT!
Though I'm not a rich person, but that's a definite NO-NO!
It's so irresponsible!
I rather be more hardworking and go work & study at the same time to cure her, if worst come to worst.
Though it's just a thought, but it's a thought that one OUGHT NOT TO HAVE!
In my hear, I'm thinking: "Have you ever thought of why she didn't cry or whine? Maybe she's afraid that if we were to know that her leg got problem, we will discard her, so she might as well choose to bear with the pain."
Though this thought may be a bit over, but I still feels that it isn't impossible~
After all, animals do have feelings too!
I think, the only thing that I can do now is to keep staying by her side, let her know that I'm always there and keep telling her: "Don't be afraid, don't be scared, it will be over soon~"
And I hope that she wouldn't blame me for the pain that I had brought her.
Pepper, I'm sorry.

S.H.E Rawks =) 5:45 PM

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Tuesday, March 08, 2011

Wednesday, 8th March 2010

好久没有更新了！
最近都在看连续剧，而刚刚看完了｢薔薇之戀｣，让我有了好多好多的感触。
这部戏虽然是个偶像剧，但是它却不像是个偶像剧。
它是个蛮复杂的爱情故事。
让我最感动的两个人就是：陆明君钸演的韓芙蓉，还有郑元畅钸演的韓葵。
先说葵吧，他爱上了Ella钸演的百合，但是百合却是他同父异母的姐姐，而百合却爱上了黄志伟钸演的韓堇，但堇呢，却是葵同母异父的哥哥。
这里头有点复杂啦，但是我觉得葵对于百合的爱十分的伟大。
那么芙蓉让我感动的地方是她那种渴望得到妈妈的爱。
她是韓家的大女儿，所以就显得她更值得我同情。
她十分爱妈妈，但是她却终是不能和妈妈好好的沟通，而她每次都会装着一副不在乎的样子, 每天看着妈妈的电影，吃吃东西，睡觉。
大概在最后第二集吧，她所说的那些话让我哭得超厉害。
以下就是她所说的话，有三个部分：
一，
那天我的決定是
我絕對不會讓你從｢母親｣的身份中解脫
即使我們注定是對失敗的｢母女｣
我對你的憎恨
也就是從那一天開始
但是我任然希望有一天
我們可以像正常的母女
真心交談不再爭鋒相對
如果你就這樣死了我會很不甘心

二，
我非常討厭她
可是她演過的每一部電影我都看過
我想可能在我心裡面
我還是深愛著她的吧
我不會說英文
可是這首歌的歌詞
我卻記得非常的清楚
我常常一次又一次的唱著
一次又一次的唱著
可是媽卻不知道
可能我對她的愛
是我自己的自作多情而已

三，
雖然我無法停止恨你
可是卻也沒有辦法丟下你不管
當媽的就佔這點便宜吧
明明我覺得
你是全世界最過分的母親
可是在我的心裡卻終是有一個聲音
不斷的替你辯解說
至少你的坦白
勝過那些表裡不一的父母吧
我不得不承認
我想得到你的愛所以我很愛你
可是你這個做母親的
卻不曾回過頭看我一眼
無所謂反正我就是愛你
你趕快醒過來
我們之間的戰爭
才沒有那麼容易善罷甘休呢

也许只是看台词不能感动到你，但是如果你去追这部戏，然后投入芙蓉的角色，你就会深深的了解她的感受了吧。
或也许我和她的立场有点相似吧。
不知道为什么当她说那些话的时候，我的眼泪就会不停的留出来。
若让我在看多一边，我还是会哭出来吧。
她那种内心的挣扎，不知道该恨她的妈妈还是爱她的妈妈，和我自己内心的挣扎真的太像了！
只是我的不是妈妈。

嗨，可是现在最可惜的就是，我到处都买不到这部戏！
真的是要崩溃了！！！
韓芙蓉，你的坚强令我十分佩服！
I salute you!

S.H.E Rawks =) 7:14 PM

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About Me

Habe_Choo Jiayi
17
3 February 1993
Aquarius
Single
jiayi22@hotmail.com
Nanyang Polytechnic after Dunman Secondary after East Spring Primary
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Guitar Ensemble[chords]
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People who are talented, humble and friendly!
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People who're bias, who copies, who acts, backstabbers, arrogant
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