As the time get nearer to tomorrow, the more I'm afraid.. I can imagine all those screamings, all those ridiculous comments that I'm going to get tomorrow.. How I wish time will stop now.. You may say I'm escaping reality, but I really don't wish to face it! She's already having enough problems and I really don't wish to make her worry about my studies.. But, what can I really do? 为什么我这么不争气呢？ 我就不能变聪敏一次些吗？ 以前那个很会读书的我到底跑去了哪里？ 好像怎么叫也叫不会，怎么找也找不回.. 如果我又姐一半的聪明，那就好了！
I should really buck up now, before it's all too late... ...
Have you ever wonder why dating couples broke up? And why married couples divorce? From what I had observed, this is because they realised that they can't f0rce themselves to accept his/her partner's flaws.. So why get married in the first place if you know that he's not your right one? When dating, didn't they realised that these problems are surfacing? Haven't they thought that forcing themselves to accept the other party's flaws, when they knew they couldn't, will only lead to further unhappiness? 所谓的：勉强是不会有幸福的.. Don't they know this?? Sometimes, I don't really understand why they get married in the first place? Their marriage only lasted for 15 years or so? Only given me 13 1/2 years of happiness.. Why are they so selfish? Destroying the happiness that I ought to have.. Destroying the image of my happy family.. Are adults all like this? I really don't know.. So, may I appeal to all of you who are dating out there that breaking up is nothing.. It only warns you that he/she is not the right one for you and prevents you from ending up in the above example.. I shall promise myself that I don't want to end up like them.. 2 foolish and childish parents..
I'm left home alone again today.. Should I be happy or sad? Happy cause there's no one to restrict me, I can do whatever I like.. Sad is because there's no one to restrict me, I will not study.. Maybe, I should have a time plan.. Ever since mum and dad quarrel, I enjoyed being alone at home.. This is the only time that I can be the real me, the only time where I can reflect on some stuffs, and think through things.. It's really wonderful to enjoy being in such a big house, alone.. Actually, I enjoyed living here, is altogether 10 years already, and that I'd already been very attached to this estate.. Can I say I've a very strong bond with this house? I really love this entire estate, it's just so convenient!! There're so many buses and can get to other places very conveniently! But sadly, after 'O's, I'm going to have to move.. Moving to a place that does not belong to me, a remote and unfamiliar place.. A place where it isn't convenient at all, with the interchange that doesn't even look like one.. A place where I would be very far apart from all my friends.. How would I live then? Even the name of that place itself doesn't sound nice, Chua Chu Kang... I really love Tampines very much!!! Can I don't move and stay here forever? I love my room!!! Above my bed, I have a mini hi-fi setFacing my bed, I have 4 S.H.E poster.Beside my bed... (I guess you already know which are mine..)My cupboard....My door.. (Rmb, this was decorated 10 years ago, so it looks childish..) You told me that I could voice out any unhappiness.. But if I were to say that I don't want to move, will you listen?
Choo Jiayi has got a very bad sunburn today.. My face is super duper red, just like a tomato!! And my hands and legs are turning red too!! So painful and itchy!! Gosh.. Anyway, today was sports day.. The last one in this school for me... Almost died running the 4x400m today.. But, for the first time in my life, I managed to overtake someone.. I know there're people cheering me at the sitting area, but I didn't know who are them.. Anyway, thanks people!! So saw classmates cheering on me, so decided to speed up.. Also cheer people calling Shuting's name, so I ran faster.. Nearly died after that.. Both my legs went jelly and it was so pain!!! Cannot sit and cannot stand.. Up next was CATERPILLAR race!! Yippee ya ya yipee yipee ya!! We're like so fast, I was caught by surprise... Soon, our last person is the 2nd faster 1st person.. I feel like slowing down actually, cause I really cannot take it any longer, but almost the whole class was cheering for us, so I didn't.. Haha.. Obviously, we came in first.. Okay, I shall cut short the details as I'm burning now.. Soon, the whole event was over.. And we had our cheers and class photo taken.. Everyone put on their hairband, I suppose, sorry Duya, I misplaced yours, will try to find it.. So decided where to eat and chosen airport.. Went to eat Popeye with a lot a lot of people.. Occupied 1 very long table and 3 rounded tables.. My lunchmates were Chenpei, Syalabi and Sam Lai.. Had lots of laughters, cause bi was sort of a joker.. Haha, mainly is because everyone there can take jokes? So more fun? So, who says more people more merrier?! Haha.. Went to walk around after that before heading home.. Hmm, had a really day plus yesterday and the day before.. Should enjoy before going to face the music on monday.. Gosh... I'm going to die terribly!! Shall upload some pictures now.. =)
This is my beautiful class The process of vandalising... ...In the end, it became like this...Some names were not sprayed very nicely(Oops..)...At first, it was like this.Then it became like this.Some people thought I will be angry, but I did it myself. Even if others did it, I will not be angry also, used to it.. =)Nice right, first time I sprayed on the wall man! When do I get a chance again?Yeah, we rocks! Most of the letters are cut out by me!Our motto: It's the attitudE not the aptitudE that Elevates our altitudEThe making of the outer-wall(He looks like Inuyasha!)..TA-DA!!! It was a whole class effort, everyone painted but only 1 crappy person drew it.. Haha!!Kudos to all the guys who did the top part.. It took us how many days and how many scolding before completing... ...Our method of demolishing.. Class photo! Saw the hairband, yeah?Photo again at Changi Airport Terminal... 2, I supposed..
It had been such a long time since I last posted.. Maybe not that long, but it feels long to me though.. Maybe cause I wasn't allow to on the computer due to my poor results.. First time in my life I failed so many subjects! Guess I think I wasn't well-prepared and was demoralized.. On the day the SYF result was out, I know I won't do well for MYE.. But what's the use, no one will understand.. So, I shall let bygones be bygones and face the upcoming music.. For now, I shall work real hard now.. GIVE IT YOUR BEST SHOT MAN! This goes to each and everyone of you too, especially my beloved friends!! We shan't let our parents "looked down" on..
Anyway, had a tiring day today.. Actually was a little, or should I say very pissed today.. But think I shan't be so bad and post it up.. Just a few words, maybe because we're brought up by different type of teachings, but I seriously feels that we shouldn't take advantage of others just because that particular thing benefits us.. That's my principle of life.. Don't you feel it to be ridiculous and annoyed if it was to happen repeatedly? Maybe I shall ask someone for her opinion next time.. Anyway, went to search for identity for friday after practising for our caterpillar for friday.. So I stood beside Chenpei, who is very good at it.. Also, she's quite, how to say, caring? Argh, I don't know how to express it, haha.. Don't get the wrong idea people.. It just that although she may look crazy but she also care for others' safety when playing.. In another words, she's just like another big sister to me.. Lol.. =) Thanks Chenpei for the encouragement and motivation that you'd given me these few days.. Really appreciates it!! :-)
If I want to achieve happiness, I'll have to hurt others and be seen as the bad guy. Should I let it pass in order not to hurt others or hold on to it? I should let it pass but I can't seem to do it... ... Someone show me the way.
So, I spend my day at home today.. Was supposed to visit the dog farm, but mum's friend had to work.. Deciding to do some amendments to my D&T folio.. It wasn't such a bad day except that dad is at home AGAIN! Just now he asked me, "You buying a dog uh?" when he saw the puppy training book which I borrowed from the library.. Can he stop asking me this question? He had already asked me 3 times already! What's wrong with him? What's he afraid about? Afraid that we rather buy a dog than help him? He can't blame us right? We're not wrong to not help him, he caused all the troubles himself! When he had bonus at the end of the year, did he give us more money? Did he spent all his money on us? Does he dare to say that we had not help him before? Did he dared to deny that he cut down on our monthly expenses when he hadn't had enough to spend? Does he dare to tell the whole world that he rather spend hie money on others than on us? So, what right does he have to blame us for not helping him? HE DOESN'T! He knew that this would be the outcome, so why does he even chose this path? To make it worse, he didn't even know he is in the wrong!! Oh gosh, I hate this type of people, knowing they're in the wrong but won't admit it!! Frankly speaking, I rather spend the money on buying a dog than help him.. It's no use helping him, he won't know his mistake.. Up to now, he still doesn't know that he is in the wrong, you see.. So, tell me, what's the use? It's not that I don't respect him, he doesn't even respect us.. Even though we're younger than him, but we're old enough to have some respect right?! Just take an example, just now, he just open my drawer to take batteries.. Although those are the batteries that he gave me, but he had already given me, so he should at least ask me first right, and not barged in and open my drawer.. Does he know privacy? Oh my... How I wish that he had rather go out all day and never come back! I'm not saying this out of anger, but I had really held back for very long! It's just that I can't take it any longer anymore!
I wasn't quite in the mood to do many things these 2 days.. Although Mid-Year had officially ended, but I'm not at all happy with the results that I'm going to receive, very soon.. Cause I feel that I had not put in my best.. I'm going to give it all out for the rest of these 6 months.. Hope I can really achieve the things I want.. Anyway, it's all over now, so no use talking about it, as the saying goes, "No use crying over spilled milk." Had been reading quite a lot of books on caring for a dog... Thought I can finally enjoy reading my Eclipse, but mum came home with 2 more books instead.. Oh my.. Anyway, had really thought through a lot of things these 2 days.. As usual, mum and dad had another stiff quarrel yesterday.. And somehow, we had to make some real important decision this time.. It concern the safety of my precious room! So, I guess I already know what decision I want to make.. But, the only thing I'm afraid is that I'll start weeping while "arguing" with him.. Though I keep telling myself to be strong, and not to cry cause these are considered small issues, and I know the path ahead of me is going to be really really tough.. So, if I'm going to cry so easily now, how am I supposed to carry on walking this path? So, Choo Jia Yi, be a strong girl, you can do it! Yes, I believe I can! No matter what happens, I know I won't fall, and even if I did, I know that there'll always be my good bunch of friends supporting me, and walking this path with me.. So, why not smile and be happy for the day instead of living it in tears? =)=)=) Tomorrow will be a better brand new day!
I thought I could forgive you and decided not to hate you anymore, until you decided to do that to me. You left me with no choice, but to hate you. I'm sorry... ...
There's a dog show today at Expo, but I'm staying at home now.. Just what is this? Just because there's a-maths paper 1 tmr? Does that mean I can't go out? Then, what's the use of studying all day yesterday? Sis will be going out later, leaving only me and dad... Whether will he be going out or not, I still won't study one.. I just adults are just like that, they won't change.. They just think about themselves, to them, they themselves having fun is enough already.. This is a totally unfair life.. They tell me to do anything they want but in the end, I always didn't get rewards.. So, tell me, what's the use of helping them do stuffs? It just prove that I'm stupid! I'm super pissed off with my life now!
Visited the dog farm for the first time today.. Saw lots and lots of Pipi!! I was so green with envy! Theirs are so huge, clever and 听话！ Compared to mine, mine is nothing.. I saw around, hmmm, let me count... ... Around 12 altogether, cause all dogs look alike, so I couldn't really tell.. Of course, there're other dogs other than pipi's type.. Saw quite a lot of puppies for sale.. Now then I realised how much I missed Pipi! And that she'd gone for such a long time. Hoped that I can visit it next week too! It's a wonderful feeling which I can't describe in words. So, I shall post some pictures(promise will take a few more during the next visit!)
Habe_Choo Jiayi
17
3 February 1993
Aquarius
Single
jiayi22@hotmail.com
Nanyang Polytechnic after Dunman Secondary after East Spring Primary
1E'06 2D'07 3E'08 4E'09
Guitar Ensemble[chords]
~Likes~
People who are talented, humble and friendly!
~Hates!~
People who're bias, who copies, who acts, backstabbers, arrogant
IDOLS!!
Actors/Actress:Jeanette Aw(S'pore),Rui En(S'pore),Elvin Ng(S'pore),Linda Chung(Hong Kong),Kate Tsui(Hong Kong),Fala Chen(Hong Kong)
Singers:S.H.E,Elva Hsiao,Tank,Wang Lee Hom,Wang Fei,Tanya Chua,BoA,Avril Lavigne
MY BELOVES~
-All my S.H.E stuffs(Albums, Dramas, DVDs, Posters, Magazines, Poker Cards & Jigsaw puzzle etc..)
-My iPhone4
-My Guitar
-My PSP
-My Laptop
-My ZEN
MY WISH
Learning all their dance steps
Hoping to be able to play their songs using a piano
BE ABLE TO SEE S.H.E AGAIN!
Facing my bed, I have 4 S.H.E poster.
Beside my bed... (I guess you already know which are mine..)
My cupboard....
My door.. (Rmb, this was decorated 10 years ago, so it looks childish..)
The process of vandalising... ...
In the end, it became like this...
Some names were not sprayed very nicely(Oops..)...
At first, it was like this.
Then it became like this.
Some people thought I will be angry, but I did it myself. Even if others did it, I will not be angry also, used to it.. =)
Nice right, first time I sprayed on the wall man! When do I get a chance again?
Yeah, we rocks! 
Most of the letters are cut out by me!
Our motto: It's the attitudE not the aptitudE that Elevates our altitudE
The making of the outer-wall(He looks like Inuyasha!)..
TA-DA!!! It was a whole class effort, everyone painted but only 1 crappy person drew it.. Haha!!
Kudos to all the guys who did the top part.. It took us how many days and how many scolding before completing... ...
Our method of demolishing.. 
Class photo! Saw the hairband, yeah?
Photo again at Changi Airport Terminal... 2, I supposed..
